Tag: parenting

It’s been a while!

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Hello! So, it has been quite some time since I last updated the old blog hasn’t it!. There is good reason for that of course…

Our baby girl is finally here!

After what felt like the longest 9 months of my entire life, our little lady Rosie made a dramatically early entrance 2 weeks before her due date via emergency c-section (in true Wilks style!) weighing a gorgeous 7lb4 of pure perfection.

And then came the aftermath…

I have of course been well and truly lost down the rabbit hole of all things newborn. It is a miracle if I wash my hair these days, and I practically live in my pyjamas unless it is essential to leave the house… but then I became poorly.

At 2 weeks post partum I thought I had been pretty lucky and avoided the little window of infection. My wound had healed beautifully (or so I thought) and I felt stronger with every passing day. Then I woke up in the middle of the night shaking violently, my head felt as though it was about to pop and my stomach was contracting again. It turned out that I had picked up both a wound and a womb infection… which I can tell you is no fun at all when you already have three children powering around the house and a newborn baby to care for too. But in typical Victoria style, I refused to go into hospital. The thought of being away from my family again was something I just couldn’t bare, so I started taking the antibiotics at home instead… two weeks on I am just about starting to feel slightly more human… so I am back!.

I will do a post on the actual birth experience soon, but more than anything I am looking forward to using my blog to share my ramblings and thoughts again… especially whilst I am at home a lot and whilst my littlest love sleeps. I will try and refrain from posting at 2am whilst doing the night feed, and when my brain isn’t firing up… (when does it these days, lets be honest).

 

 

Victoria

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The third trimester….. Finally!

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Finally I’ve made it! It feels as though the past 27 weeks have lasted an eternity… and now here we are at 29 weeks, on the home stretch!.

Although it is incredibly exciting knowing that our baby will be here with us within the next 10 weeks… it is also absolutely terrifying. I think the part that is scaring me the most right now is knowing that I have to have another ceserean section. Of course there are many perks to this, one of the main advantages being childcare…. get the kiddies booked in nice and early with the grandparents so it should be relatively stress free.

The major disadvantage is how long the recovery takes. This isn’t my first ceserean so I know what to expect, but I always find it so frustrating having to ‘take it easy’ for weeks on end when all I want to do is get back to normal with my little loves.

Having said all of this, my heart swells at the thought of completiting our family, and that definitely over rules all of the nerves and doubt that keeps creeping in.

I’m so excited for her to meet her older siblings, who I know are going to be amazing with her…. and of course to finally meet her daddy too!.

So although right now I am finding it impossible to sleep, I am sweating continously (not nice for the family I can tell you). Continously bursting out in tears, and making the most unflattering noises imaginable when turning over in bed…. I can guarantee that i will desperately miss my baby bump when she arrives.

With 10 weeks to go, I am going to try and enjoy every uncomfortable minute of it, and keep focusing on how amazing it will be to finally meet this little miracle of ours.

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Expanding by 1!

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After 18 weeks filled with happiness, excitement and mass amounts of anxiety, I finally feel ready to share our news. In September we will be welcoming a beautiful baby girl into our family.

For the past 6 years I have been told on endless occasions that I would never be able to conceive naturally again, so the sheer delight in discovering this pregnancy is truly difficult to put into words.

Although the journey is mostly exciting, not every day is filled with joy. There are many days that I find myself in a panic wondering if the little niggles and pains are normal or if there’s something wrong with my baby. I have had endless dreams about losing this little angel and wake up in a blind panic convinced it’s really happening. It’s true, pregnancy and bipolar can be challenging at times.

I am incredibly lucky though, I have the most supportive, understanding husband by my side, and three amazing children who never fail to lift my spirits on the down days.

I am going to make a conscious effort to take each day as it comes. I need to try and embrace every day of this pregnancy as it is certainly going to be my last.

I need to remember these little kicks and flutters I’m feeling and remind myself that, right now at least, everything is just fine.

I am glad to have my little blog to share my pregnancy journey, my ‘safe place’ to get these thoughts out of my head and who knows, it might even help someone else realise they aren’t alone too.

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Delamere Forest 🎄

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Today I really pushed myself. I felt like doing nothing but staying in bed, but I forced myself out of the door with the family as they set off to Delamere Forest on the search for a Christmas tree….and truth be told, I had a wonderful day.

Delamere is such a beautiful place to visit. There are endless walks you can take, cafes to stop off at….and obviously the most amazing part of it is how beautiful the forest is to look at. There is something so calming about being out in the forest, the sounds and just the general scenery works wonders for my over active mind.

But today we visited for a different purpose, we set off along with the rest of the family (yes, aunties and uncles too!) And went to pick a tree…sadly not for ourselves, but the grandparents needed some help of course…

We visit delamere every year at Christmas with the rest of the family, and it has quickly become one of our many, much loved traditions. It never fails to make me feel festive….especially as I’m sat inside the tent enjoying a hot chocolate and listening to Christmas music!. The children absolutely love exploring and trying to find the ‘perfect tree’ too.

And now we are back home….we are going to end our lovely festive day by curling up under a blanket, having a takeaway for tea and watching one of our Christmas favourites…. ELF!.

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